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Westa ...

She says that I need to rest, but I can't help but think that doing so is only proving that I'm not fit for rule. If it were Westa, the last left, would she isolate herself and become fully useless for a week? No, she would be back on her feet in an instant. That's ... that would be the way to honour Mother.

Mother, you ...

I wish you well in the life to come. I speak truly when I saw that you'll always be my hero, the template on which I want to build my life. My life. Haha.

All my life, I've dreamed of sitting at Razen or ruling Cleraine, and now, at least for a time, I shall have both. And at such a small cost, indeed. All of my family. All ...

The silence continues, but the images are all burned into my mind. They won't go away.

I want to rest. That's what I want. I want to sleep until I don't think of all of them every moment, sleep until something is arranged to deal with Father, sleep until I don't see things moving out of the corner of my eye because my mind can't believe the madness is over.

Does that make me weak? Does that ...





Westa was right. Mother could not have died like they say she did. Mother was better than that.