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May. 8th, 2012 03:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
torchthemoons[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]
... I will admit, this frustration is getting to be more than I can handle. Not for the stupid, infuriating male reasons, though those are bad enough in themselves. Weakness.
But -- I'm worried I'm not handling this right. I've never been good at being the pursuer, never. I prefer to be chased, and it's been long enough since Rose Day that I think I should start to be worried.
"Slut," Westa called her, and I've heard the same. So why does she seem completely disinterested in taking me into her bed? Is it Matthew? That's the only thing that's changed. Is she now determined to make herself into a virginal widow? If that's the case, there's no harm. She knows she needs daughters, she isn't so foolish as to end the Ansharian dynasty out of a sentimental gesture. She's not that poor a Queen.
But what if it's me?
What if I'm nothing more than a comforting blanket she's pulled about herself while she mourns, before she seeks out a better husband? -- she won't find a better, of course. Other than the Prince, I'm the most eligible man in Atsiria, and she knows more than well enough she can't have him. But she is a willful, heart-driven idiot, and I wouldn't put it past her ...
I'm getting so exhausted, dealing with her.
[Filter: Westa, in Atsirian]
Ah, sister. Did you and Altair receive your invitations to this event of the century with the Goddess priestesses?
... I will admit, this frustration is getting to be more than I can handle. Not for the stupid, infuriating male reasons, though those are bad enough in themselves. Weakness.
But -- I'm worried I'm not handling this right. I've never been good at being the pursuer, never. I prefer to be chased, and it's been long enough since Rose Day that I think I should start to be worried.
"Slut," Westa called her, and I've heard the same. So why does she seem completely disinterested in taking me into her bed? Is it Matthew? That's the only thing that's changed. Is she now determined to make herself into a virginal widow? If that's the case, there's no harm. She knows she needs daughters, she isn't so foolish as to end the Ansharian dynasty out of a sentimental gesture. She's not that poor a Queen.
But what if it's me?
What if I'm nothing more than a comforting blanket she's pulled about herself while she mourns, before she seeks out a better husband? -- she won't find a better, of course. Other than the Prince, I'm the most eligible man in Atsiria, and she knows more than well enough she can't have him. But she is a willful, heart-driven idiot, and I wouldn't put it past her ...
I'm getting so exhausted, dealing with her.
[Filter: Westa, in Atsirian]
Ah, sister. Did you and Altair receive your invitations to this event of the century with the Goddess priestesses?
